I cancelled my Pathfinder campaign tonight. I just can't muster the excitement to go on with the adventure path, and I feel horrible about it. I'm not burned out on GMing, but I am burned out on Pathfinder. I'm not saying it is a horrible system, but I'm not in synch with it anymore, and I had a lot of work to do to get into the next adventure in the AP.
After talking to some friends (thanks for letting me bend your ears, by the way), I was feeling that, if I can't do a good job of it, and I'm not having fun, bad gaming can be worse than no gaming, and I was just going to man up and tell everyone that I'm not really feeling it anymore.
So I send out the e-mail, and take a deep breath. I hope I don't loose many players, and I hope I get to keep GMing, I'll be honest. I want to run games, I just don't want to run Pathfinder.
Then I get an opinion on EN World saying that me cancelling a adventure path before the end is like Fox cancelling Firefly mid season. Great. Now I'm back to feeling guilty. So I guess either I do a shitty job as a GM, because I'm not invested in the system I'm running, or I'm a shitty GM because I can't follow through on running a full AP for the players.
I don't know what's wrong with me.